Back to life as a family of 7 and upcoming changes

Sorry I have slacked on blogging lately. It isn't from lack of desire or things to discuss just lack of time to sit and really truly think on what to write. As I sit here in my favorite coffee shop, honey latte next to me, computer on my lap, no little kiddies around me (thank you in laws and sister in laws for letting me sneak away) I am overwhelmed with the last 4 weeks. Overwhelmed with changes, growth, and joys.
- Baby K moved to my friends house after they were finally foster care approved, 2 weeks after being at our home.
- Little Lady K has learned an unreal amount of English. She can understand about 75% of it and speaks a decent amount. We don't know how long she will be with us. We don't even have a court date until September and it can be months after that so we are settling in with her.
- Baby N's is about to turn 5 months, which means he has almost been with us for 5 months. His mom is still working her program and doing great so hopefully he will be transitioning to her by end of June beginning of July.
- Allie, Jake and Izzie are growing in such incredible ways. I have seen their character build more in the last couple months then it has the rest of their young lives. I love to watch them serve and love on their for now brothers and sisters. Jake is just the sweetest with Baby N. I often times find him singing to him, or playing with him in the living room, making up the sweetest songs and just loving on him. Izzie has grown up so much and I have loved to watch her turn into the little lady she is. Allie is my little servant who loves hard. She has learned the signs of me being stressed and in those moments will ask "mom how can I help right now". It just makes my heart so happy to see my children looking outward at the people around them. Rob and I continue to pray that the Lord instills that in their hearts, to not focus on themselves, but what is going on in the peoples world around them.

Life is definitely moving at warp speed right now so we are trying to make sure it doesn't pass us in a blink of an eye. As I said Baby N will hopefully be transitioning back to his mom soon. We had court earlier this month and the Judge said we don't need to return, but just wait on her program to finish and baby N can transition home. This is what we have prayed for for the last 5 months. I have grown to love his mom and am so thankful for that relationship the Lord has given me. I know full well that the Lord will do some amazing things in that family. I also know that my relationship will continue past the time we hand him in her arms full time. Even with all those things my heart obviously still hurts, as I realized it should. This month I randomly will be brought to tears as I see him smile at me, to see my kids love him as he was their own brother, to snuggle and smell his sweet body. I knew from the beginning that this was temporary and I longed for it to be temporary, my heart longs for families to be restored and the Lord has shown up in amazing ways in my relationship with his mom, and how DSS has allowed a lot of freedom there, but those facts don't diminish the fact that my heart hurts and breaks to know that this type of relationship with baby N is coming to an end. It hurts to think of my kids saying goodbye to a baby they have loved on so hard and so passionately. So now I pray. I pray for peace. I pray for his Mom to be ready. I pray for his transition, that its easy on him. I pray that I am able to be a part of his life, to watch him grow and turn into the sweet little boy that I know he will be, that our families will be forever woven together. I can't know for sure what the future holds, but one thing I do know is that the Lord has already gone before baby N and He promises He will be there we just have to recognize it, we have to see the Lord through the storm, in the joys, and He will guide, comfort, and grant joy when we seek Him. Will you pray along side me in the next couple weeks that the Lord shows up in a big way, that Baby N's mom is able to bring him home and that we all feel peace and comfort in this time?